[As angry as he is with Akechi, it isn't like...he wishes he wouldn't have seen the consequences. Not after everything with his mom. The reminder helps to drag his mood back down to a simmer.
It isn't...enough, he thinks. He knows there has to be more they can do -- or rather, that he can force Akechi to do, because Mav doesn't know shit, really.]
I don't mean tell them about Mousie. Like he isn't fucking looked after more than everyone else already, the shit he does... I mean telling them about him. We can't handle this, just you n' me.
[His first impulse is to shoot down the idea out of hand, but he bites it back. He knows it's wrong...he knows what Mav is saying is true. But the idea of handing this off to someone else fills him with overwhelming dread.]
If I did that...they'd go after him, right? I wouldn't...be involved.
[He really doesn't. As much as he speaks with authority when it comes to making decisions or insulting someone, he feels like he's floundering.]
Maybe. Probably... But isn't that fucking better than maybe making someone kill themselves, trying to bye time? I mean... Don't fucking...let him do that to someone again.
[He closes his eyes, fear and anger and dread all conflicting with something newer, maybe stronger. Loyalty, affection. A desire to do right by his boyfriend, and to be someone he deserves. Finally, he manages to force out an answer.]
That lich is arriving in two days. If...if we beat him, and I survive, I'll tell them about the sabotage mission. But I can't...tell them who I am. I can't be behind bars, or worse, when he faces justice for what he's done.
[He watches Akechi carefully, but the mention of the Herald makes his eyes dart away again. Right...as if things weren't fucking bad enough right now. Almost everyone he knows might die. That's fucking great.
He moves carefully, resting his hands on top of his boyfriend's before leaning in to rest his forehead against the other's. Can't stomach a kiss just yet, but he still cares. He needs Akechi to know that he cares. He's here.]
I'm...not going. So you have to come back to me, okay? Or I'm never fucking forgiving you for any of this shit.
[The rest of the details...can probably wait until they know who's left.]
Hey, now. Didn't you just fucking listen to me? That's not allowed. None of this "not coming back", fuck that lich.
[Masayoshi Shido, huh... Massive Shit Masayoshi Shido. He repeats the name in his head several more times before nodding and letting out a breath he didn't realize he was holding.]
[It's weird, having the impulse to both sink in closer and wrap his arms around the other boy, and to pull away. In the end, he does nothing. Nods, after a pause.]
I will.
[...with no offer to try and heal his hypothetical wounds, either. It's too much right now.]
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Date: 2019-06-23 07:05 pm (UTC)It isn't...enough, he thinks. He knows there has to be more they can do -- or rather, that he can force Akechi to do, because Mav doesn't know shit, really.]
I don't mean tell them about Mousie. Like he isn't fucking looked after more than everyone else already, the shit he does... I mean telling them about him. We can't handle this, just you n' me.
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Date: 2019-06-23 07:16 pm (UTC)If I did that...they'd go after him, right? I wouldn't...be involved.
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Date: 2019-06-23 10:45 pm (UTC)[He really doesn't. As much as he speaks with authority when it comes to making decisions or insulting someone, he feels like he's floundering.]
Maybe. Probably... But isn't that fucking better than maybe making someone kill themselves, trying to bye time? I mean... Don't fucking...let him do that to someone again.
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Date: 2019-06-29 03:02 am (UTC)That lich is arriving in two days. If...if we beat him, and I survive, I'll tell them about the sabotage mission. But I can't...tell them who I am. I can't be behind bars, or worse, when he faces justice for what he's done.
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Date: 2019-07-11 01:30 am (UTC)He moves carefully, resting his hands on top of his boyfriend's before leaning in to rest his forehead against the other's. Can't stomach a kiss just yet, but he still cares. He needs Akechi to know that he cares. He's here.]
I'm...not going. So you have to come back to me, okay? Or I'm never fucking forgiving you for any of this shit.
[The rest of the details...can probably wait until they know who's left.]
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Date: 2019-07-16 03:38 am (UTC)Of course. I promise that if I don't come back, it's going to be because we've lost.
[He has powerful Personas now, including one that can heal him.]
But...in case I come back on a stretcher and he decides I'm not worthwhile anymore...his name is Masayoshi Shido.
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Date: 2019-07-16 03:51 am (UTC)[Masayoshi Shido, huh... Massive Shit Masayoshi Shido. He repeats the name in his head several more times before nodding and letting out a breath he didn't realize he was holding.]
Got it. I'll remember.
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Date: 2019-07-16 04:16 am (UTC)[He takes a breath and puts his arms around Mav's shoulders.]
If I'm in the infirmary for more than a day, tell Jailbreak.
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Date: 2019-07-16 09:51 am (UTC)I will.
[...with no offer to try and heal his hypothetical wounds, either. It's too much right now.]