I wouldn't necessarily say new. More along the lines of something I'd been feeling for a while reaching a tipping point.
[...Well, as long as he's being honest with Akira, he might as well...tell him what part of himself Loki comes from.]
You're very lucky, you know. For every Palace you enter, it seems like you make a new friend. You meet someone good to balance out everything twisted you just saw.
I wasn't so fortunate. Every Palace I saw was more evidence of our society's corruption, and I didn't see anything in the real world to counter my discoveries in the Metaverse. I...do still hold the pure desire for justice that led me to awaken to Robin Hood, but I guess you could say I've become more cynical. When that hatred for everything I'd seen represented in people's Shadows boiled over, that's when I heard Loki's voice for the first time.
[ It's not... a pleasant realization. In spite of how much he's always appreciated each person on his team, as well as the fact he was able to help save them, at all...
He's never... fully realized just how lucky he is to have them. It hadn't fully dawned on him until this very conversation. This very moment where it's actually sinking in. Being given powers beyond anything he's ever imagined... Holding that anger towards some of those power-hungry adults... Seeing just how corrupt people's hearts can become...
... He can't imagine himself ever killing, however... Goro Akechi himself likely hadn't been able to imagine killing anyone, years ago. So, after hearing those words, letting his own thoughts fully sink in... ]
... I can't say it never would have happened to me. [ His voice is just above a whisper. ] Before Ryuji and Morgana came into my life, I was angry...
[ There's a quiet exhale. ]
Granted, my anger really started after I wound up with a record...
[ A wry smirk tugs at his lips. ]
I was angry at being that guy everyone was whispering about in the hallways. At people being scared of me even though none of them knew the first thing about me. [ A quiet 'heh' slips out. ] And all because I tried to stop some drunk man from shoving a woman into the car...
[ The fingers of one hand brush through Goro's hair. ]
So... I don't think there's anything bad about winding up with two Personas from something like that. [ He manages a smile. ] It's actually kind of nice not being the only Wildcard...
[This is the first time he's heard the context behind Akira's assault conviction, and something about it rings familiar. It's not uncommon for him to have to distract his father from harassing women when he's drunk. But, he's sure there's a lot of other disgusting men out there who would do that.]
I'm glad I can give you that comfort, at least. Loki is rooted in a very dark part of my heart, so I don't make a habit of wearing his mask when I'm in public. His abilities are very useful, though. Especially since he has some powerful Almighty based attacks.
If I really am a member of the Phantom Thieves now, you already have. Granted, I was almost certainly holding back, since I doubt I was willing to admit to the depth of my experience in the Metaverse.
[He pulls closer to give Akira a kiss, albeit a brief one.]
Once we escape, I'll be sure to show you my full powers.
Hmm...speaking of which. I've been telling others I'm unfamiliar with the supernatural, but perhaps we ought to discuss how much we're willing to share about the truth.
I don't mind either. You were the only one here I expected to know the...significance of my own powers. I don't think letting them know will cause any problems for us.
After the assault charge, I kind of just wanted to become invisible. I thought, with something like those, I'd be able to just get through my probation with less eyes zeroing in on me.
I can certainly understand wanting to avoid notice sometimes. I've occasionally wound up hiding behind signs or landscaping in order to get a moment of peace to myself.
[And his profile admits for him that he usually likes attention.]
[ Ah... the profile does mention him not liking attention, but it also mentions... ]
I have no idea what I'd do with rabid fans stalking me...
[ He slides a hand down Goro's arm, fingers gently wrapping around the other young man's hand once his own reaches it. While interlocking their fingers, he makes a quiet, thoughtful sound. ]
Maybe once we're out, I can make some disguises for you to wear.
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Date: 2017-12-06 07:18 pm (UTC)[...Well, as long as he's being honest with Akira, he might as well...tell him what part of himself Loki comes from.]
You're very lucky, you know. For every Palace you enter, it seems like you make a new friend. You meet someone good to balance out everything twisted you just saw.
I wasn't so fortunate. Every Palace I saw was more evidence of our society's corruption, and I didn't see anything in the real world to counter my discoveries in the Metaverse. I...do still hold the pure desire for justice that led me to awaken to Robin Hood, but I guess you could say I've become more cynical. When that hatred for everything I'd seen represented in people's Shadows boiled over, that's when I heard Loki's voice for the first time.
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Date: 2017-12-07 02:49 am (UTC)He's never... fully realized just how lucky he is to have them. It hadn't fully dawned on him until this very conversation. This very moment where it's actually sinking in. Being given powers beyond anything he's ever imagined... Holding that anger towards some of those power-hungry adults... Seeing just how corrupt people's hearts can become...
... He can't imagine himself ever killing, however... Goro Akechi himself likely hadn't been able to imagine killing anyone, years ago. So, after hearing those words, letting his own thoughts fully sink in... ]
... I can't say it never would have happened to me. [ His voice is just above a whisper. ] Before Ryuji and Morgana came into my life, I was angry...
[ There's a quiet exhale. ]
Granted, my anger really started after I wound up with a record...
[ A wry smirk tugs at his lips. ]
I was angry at being that guy everyone was whispering about in the hallways. At people being scared of me even though none of them knew the first thing about me. [ A quiet 'heh' slips out. ] And all because I tried to stop some drunk man from shoving a woman into the car...
[ The fingers of one hand brush through Goro's hair. ]
So... I don't think there's anything bad about winding up with two Personas from something like that. [ He manages a smile. ] It's actually kind of nice not being the only Wildcard...
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Date: 2017-12-07 04:09 am (UTC)I'm glad I can give you that comfort, at least. Loki is rooted in a very dark part of my heart, so I don't make a habit of wearing his mask when I'm in public. His abilities are very useful, though. Especially since he has some powerful Almighty based attacks.
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Date: 2017-12-08 12:23 am (UTC)[ He pauses as his fingers brush against the side of Goro's face, a thoughtful look resting on his own. ]
Whenever one of the other thieves' Personas evolved, it became stronger and gave them new skills...
[ There's a soft, fond expression. ]
And the Personas I got from a new Palace or deeper parts of Mementos were always stronger, and they always came with stronger abilities.
[ His fingers brush over Goro's cheek, one corner of his lips lifting. ]
Gotta admit... I'm kind of eager to see you in action.
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Date: 2017-12-08 12:43 am (UTC)[He pulls closer to give Akira a kiss, albeit a brief one.]
Once we escape, I'll be sure to show you my full powers.
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Date: 2017-12-08 03:46 am (UTC)Guess that's a fair point, but doesn't help if I can't remember it right now.
[ He feigns a huff-like, dramatic pout of sorts... but then it's cracking back into a smile as he nods. ]
Deal.
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Date: 2017-12-08 04:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-12-08 10:33 pm (UTC)[ A thoughtful hum. ]
Maybe even world...
[ He's seen a lot of sci-fi movies?? ]
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Date: 2017-12-08 10:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-12-09 01:45 am (UTC)[ One of his hands is sliding forward a bit to idly twist Goro's hair as he leans to kiss his boyfriend's forehead. ]
Hm...
[ Since he's told him details on the assault charges, on how people looked at him... ]
You know... there's something else I've never told anyone...
[ He's sliding off his glasses. ]
... About how these were something I only started wearing after I switched schools.
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Date: 2017-12-09 03:13 am (UTC)[He runs a finger over the round frames.]
They soften your features. Are they to make you look more harmless?
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Date: 2017-12-09 04:09 am (UTC)Yeah... something like that.
[ A puff of a sigh is released. ]
After the assault charge, I kind of just wanted to become invisible. I thought, with something like those, I'd be able to just get through my probation with less eyes zeroing in on me.
[ He shrugs a shoulder, releasing a soft laugh. ]
It didn't exactly go as planned in some areas...
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Date: 2017-12-09 05:14 am (UTC)[And his profile admits for him that he usually likes attention.]
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Date: 2017-12-11 09:21 pm (UTC)I have no idea what I'd do with rabid fans stalking me...
[ He slides a hand down Goro's arm, fingers gently wrapping around the other young man's hand once his own reaches it. While interlocking their fingers, he makes a quiet, thoughtful sound. ]
Maybe once we're out, I can make some disguises for you to wear.